Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder.

Life-changner, uprooter and professional fun controller.

If you thought mother nature has played enough tricks on you, wait there is one more. Well at least for 8%-10% of us anyways. PMDD, bluntly, is PMS x 100 and in most of us suffering a monster in disguise. It is basically monthly depression the slides into your life  8-10 days before your cycle starts and sucks life out of you.

Before I was diagnosed, I along with my partner noticed that right before my period I would not only get moody and have cravings like no other but, on some days I could not get out of bed. Some days, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t shower and my body would ache at the idea at rising and facing the day. One day, I laid on the floor crying, not understanding what was happening and why I couldn’t connect to my friends or laugh at my favorite Dave Chappelle stand up. My partner found me, on the floor crying… it was there that we did a little research and stumbled up the monthly monster that visited me.

PMDD. Life-changer, uprooter and professional fun controller.

Since that day, in November I went to my OB/GYN  and discussed my symptoms there was no doubt that this was it.  Though, PMDD has only recently became “a thing”. It is a new mental health issue, and debate seems to be following it. Nonetheless, I was soon given an ultimatum anti-depressants or birth control. I am against both, something just doesn’t sit right with me, personal mostly, no other reason.* So, I left the doctor that day completely overwhelmed and unsure of what to do. I went looking, like crazy. I looked for just about anything I could get my hands on that might be of help and would give me some sort of, relief? I don’t know. Anyway, I found it. So far I have been using PeaceKeeper Herb Drops <>. It is an all-natural combination of age old herbs that help relieve symptoms of PMS. It is recommended to take 20-40 drops 2-3 time a day. I figured this would hurt. So far, so good. With anything it requires time to see true results or even a little fine toning. But I have found some relief.

In addition to the drops, I have since picked up more hobbies then I need but all falling under the umbrella of crafting. It calms me and gets me out of my head, that sometimes can be the darkest place for me. I really enjoy making things pretty and giving them a piece of myself. This, I think more than anything has helped not only in general but also during those periods of depression.

I would like to point out though that my journey is not over, for the drops help but something still doesn’t feel quite right. I suppose I am having a hard time letting PMDD take over my life or maybe I just want to put up a fair fight lol, I don’t know. But, I am still in the search for something else to try or maybe add-on to my routine now. Because I like feeling like myself and depression is no joke. I also really want to put more things in my life that I enjoy, sometimes we get so caught up in what we are supposed to do that we forget to do what we want to do.

That being said, remember that help is always available and that I love you. Look for happiness, in every single corner. It’s just a never ending  hide and go seek game.

If you or someone you know is suffering please feel free to contact me @

There are also plenty of online resources. I will link some below.



MGH Center for Women’s Health

Loving and Rising,


*I have read and heard a many of stories of women that birth control worked for them or anti-depressants and I think thats wonderful.